100

This, my dear friends, is my 100th post! I have been trying to think of something awesome to write about. Or maybe something sentimental, something that would have you in tears but alas I could not think of anything awesome or sentimental to blog about. I also thought about writing something super funny but I thought I would leave the funny blogging to one Tom Widdison. So instead I have decided to write a list. Just plain and simple. A list of 100 different things that I have thought about, that I have done, that I never thought I would do or that I hate. You don't have to read it all though but thanks for the attention thus far.

1. I've been thinking lately that 1 hour just isn't enough time these days
2. I never thought I would be the partial owner of a cat, being a dog person myself.
3. I never thought I would live to see the day where I have 2 semesters left of school.
4. I never thought I would be away from my family for 1 whole year.
5. I am missing Christmas with my family and for some reason that makes me feel so grown up.
6. How did I live life without reading Harry Potter until now.
7. I also feel grown up because Tomas and I grilled a Salmon!
8. 100 things is looking like a lot to jot down...
9. I now know first hand how sad my dad gets during the Holidays.
10. I really like that Adele song right now.
11. What am I going to do after I graduate. Everything that I have done and worked for has been leading up to my graduation and I don't know what I'm supposed to do.
12. I have to get married.
13. I miss my dog.
14. Sometimes you have to learn the hard way
15. I want to see the good everyone and usually they'll live up to it. Usually.
16. I got a journal to write in because I really want to be able to remember everything.
17. I forget to write in my journal
18. I want to make a quilt
19. I can't wait for next semester.
20. I can't wait to be warm
21. I've been listening to a lot of hip hop and r&b. So much so that I don't even know what Indie bands are anymore. jk. (am i?)
22. I started running and I became better at it than I was last year.
23. I love the walking dead
24. The age I will be this coming year. Should I make some goals? Nah. Soon I will have no purpose in life
25. I am looking forward to going home so that I can make money and shop till I drop.
26. I want new (awesome) shoes for graduation. I bought new shoes for high school graduation. I can't remember anything about that except my shoes and the feeling of accomplishment.
27. I never thought that I would love Gossip Girl as much as I love it right now.

Things I want for this year.

28. I want to be good. At everything that I want to be good at.
29. I want to be consistant.
30. I want to be a runner.
31. I want to be a good student.
32. I still want to get in a fight. A physical altercation, if you will. But let's be honest, that won't happen.
33. I want to be nicer to strangers.
34. i'm never going to get 100 and keep your interest so I'll just finish right meow.

Unlock the Answer for the Future

My dad is coming to visit me!! Because I am so excited to see him I have been thinking about him a lot lately. I really miss him. He's the coolest dad ever and he's the funniest guy I've ever met. I've written about him before on this blog, I think, so I'll get to the point. The things that I have mostly been thinking about are the things that I have learned from him.

When I was a kid, I must have been 8 or 9, there was a lock floating around in my parents room. It was just a regular lock, the kind you have to have a combination for. The kind you turn to the right then the left then the right again. I didn't know what it was for but I was intrigued, probably because of it shiny peculiarity. One night I grabbed it on the way into my parents room and I sat on their bed. My mother didn't even look up from what she was doing but she said "put it back." My dad looked over and I looked at him and said "What is it?". " A lock," he said and i replied "I want to open it. Tell me how to do it." He just kind of looked at me and as he scooted closer to me he said. "Ok." It sounded like when you know that someone is in for way more than they bargained for but you let them have it anyway. He proceeded to teach me how to turn the lock in the right order and with the right numbers so that I could do it myself. At first I was having the time of life. I felt like a spy. I felt like if I could open this lock I would be on my way to opening every lock I came across. He had to explain it to me a couple of times and then he felt that I was ready to do it all by myself. I tried once, twice, three times and I failed all my attempts at opening it. I looked up at him and I said, with defeat, "Dad, I can't." His response was "Yes you can, try it again." I tried it again and my efforts were to no avail. This time though, I got mad and I threw the lock and I yelled "I CAN'T DO IT! I'M LEAVING!!" and what did my dad do? He got mad! He was pissed! He grabbed my arm before I leapt off the bed and he said "You CAN do it! Try it again! You wanted to learn to open the lock! SO DO IT! You can not leave this room until you open that lock." I was so mad, how could he sit there and tell me that I could do something that I clearly wasn't able to do. I sat there and as I let some tears fall down my face I tried it again. I don't know how long it took me to open the lock but I did it.

Something that my dad always said to me was "Are you going to let it defeat you? You are smarter than (fill in the blank)" The blank was usually something inanimate or an idea. It was usually a math problem or something. So he'd say " Are you going to let it defeat you? You're smarter than that math problem."

One time, he tried to teach me to how to drive his truck (a manual), he got frustrated with me and as he let me out of the drivers seat he said to me, "I can't believe this truck is smarter than you." And on the way home I felt like a failure. But to become smarter than something or someone sometimes you have to feel like a failure. This story has no end because I still have not learned to drive his truck but someday I will. That stupid truck ain't got NOTHING on me!

The lesson my dad taught me was to never give up. Never let something stand in your way or make you feel dumb. Now in my relatively old age, I am thankful for the night that he made me stay in his room until I unlocked that lock because now I have the determination to finish what I started. And I mean what I say or I don't say it all. Although sometimes I only apply this to things that I really really want to learn. Like crafts. Knitting, sewing, needle point and such. Sometimes for school.

I am thankful for my dad. Sometimes he thinks that I resent him but I don't. I may have at one point resented him and before that I may have sworn that I hated him but that was just the Teen Angst talking. Now that I've grown up I feel nothing but gratitude and indebtedness towards him (and my mother of course). I love him and I know that he raised me the best way he knew how.

(Noemi, you can read this to Dad if you feel the need to.)

Can't Stop Won't Stop

Ever since Noemi told me about the song "Alejate de mi" by Latin pop group Camila, I can't stop listening to it! It's a great song.

Other things things that I can't stop doing include but are not limited to:

-reading Harry Potter

-renting movies from the library

-eating candy

-eating ice cream

-listening to Eisley

Short list but it's true.

Also this is my favorite SpongeBob Sqaure Pants clip. I love SBSP!

I'll treat ya like I missed ya.

I'll treat this blog like I missed it. Honestly I don't really miss it all that much but I was just reading Noemi's blog and I realized that there a lot of things on her blog that she doesn't tell me about which is fine because obvi she just forgets to tell me. But it got me thinking that there are probably a lot of things that I forget to tell her. So I will start to update this blog if only to make sure she knows everything.

Something else that got me thinking about blogging is that Saturday I guess I'm going to be hiking Table Rock with some friends. I'm pretty scared. You wanna know why? Ok.

I'm afraid

1. that I will slow everyone down and I will only be a nuisance to them all.

2. that I will die

3. that I will literally stop breathing

4. how long does it take for one to get used living in such high altitude when said person is from GA? I'm afraid that I won't be able to handle the elevation

5. that I will have to run from a moose or bear (or any wild animal for that matter)

6. that I will fall

I'm just a scaredy cat I think. I don't know if this is a very good idea. I mean, I worked out almost every other day this semester. There were a few weeks in total that I didn't work out but still every time I climb R mountain I want to die. The only thing keeping me from cowering like a dog, in a tent, while every one else climbs Table rock is my fear that I will get eaten by a bear and/or a moose and no one will hear my screams for help because they are too busy looking out onto Idaho's boobs (the Tetons is french for boobs. Look it up! It's true! The french are perverts. Look that up too!) So either way I'm a wimp.

Onto more pressing matters. I have a tradition of blogging my will before I do anything scary. Once I made a will before I climbed out onto my friend's roof. The point being that in the event that I die, just fight over my things. I'm talking American Gladiator type stuff. Oh except I want Noemi to have my phone so she can know the wonder it is to own an iPhone. Oh and in case I die I choose Tom to delete all my text messages (wouldn't want you all to not show up at my funeral just because I said something mean about you via text message. JK I don't say mean things about my friends, but maybe I say mean things about your friends. You'll never know). Tell my mother that my last words were "I love my mom." My last words may very well be "son of B****, motherF******, i knew i shouldn't have hiked this so-called table rock!" but you tell my mother that they were the former! And Noemi, if I die, change my facebook status to "Dead" and my relationship status to in a Relationship with the Grim Reaper or something funny like that. If you don't do it, I'll haunt you.

I think I have everything covered. On a lighter note, IF I survive this hike you'll get to see lot's of pretty pictures taken from my phone! They WILL be edited on instagram because i am NOT a real photographer and instagram makes me feel better about that. Say something!! That's what I thought.

I'd better go to sleep, it's getting late and I'm becoming more belligerent by the minute. Wish me luck, pray for me, send good vibes my way or wish upon a star that i will make it through this adventure.

Music

So this whole thing about illegal downloading. I don't want to say anything incriminating you know, but let's talk about it. I believer what the guy in that video was saying because I've done that before. I have gotten a CD that I haven't downloaded and I have either gone to a show and bought something or I buy the CD. Sometimes I forget that illegal downloading affects big pop artists as well. I just can't imagine that it affects them because, look at how much money they get! I mean, Lady Gaga is not a poor artist struggling to buy food because her music is being downloaded illegally. Trey Songz sings about how he is "a walking bank". The phenomenon of illegal music downloading started with napster but there is evidence to show that CD sales didn't actually slow down until after Napster was shut down. Here is an article all about it. and is the video about illegal downloading So this whole thing about illegal downloading. I don't want to say anything incriminating you know, but let's talk about it. I believer what the guy in that video was saying because I've done that before. I have gotten a CD that I haven't downloaded and I have either gone to a show and bought something or I buy the CD. Sometimes I forget that illegal downloading affects big pop artists as well. I just can't imagine that it affects them because, look at how much money they get! I mean, Lady Gaga is not a poor artist struggling to buy food because her music is being downloaded illegally. Trey Songz sings about how he is "a walking bank". The phenomenon of illegal music downloading started with napster but there is evidence to show that CD sales didn't actually slow down until after Napster was shut down.

a video about illegal downloading.

The music industry is doing a lot to try to stop or slow illegal music downloading. They are putting out music slower than they used to. Who really knows how that's going to help? But who am I to say, they are the experts right? Something else that they did was to sell digital copies of music, i.e iTunes. Good idea? Bad idea? I think it's a good idea, but now the music on iTunes is going up. Is it inflation or is because there is still a lot of illegal downloading going on?

I think that the big music tycoons could take a few pointers from some indie labels. There are a lot of indie bands that stream their CDs on the internet for free. It's streaming on the internet for a certain amount of time and by the end of the streaming people want that CD. Of course it depends on the quality of the music but in general I think this idea is genius!

What do you think? Tell me your ideas and stuff!

The music industry is doing a lot to try to stop or slow illegal music downloading. They are putting out music slower than they used to. Who really knows how that's going to help? But who am I to say, they are the experts right? Something else that they did was to sell digital copies of music, i.e iTunes. Good idea? Bad idea? I think it's a good idea, but now the music on iTunes is going up. Is it inflation or is because there is still a lot of illegal downloading going on?

I think that the big music tycoons could take a few pointers from some indie labels. There are a lot of indie bands that stream their CDs on the internet for free. It's streaming on the internet for a certain amount of time and by the end of the streaming people want that CD. Of course it depends on the quality of the music but in general I think this idea is genius!

What do you think? Tell me your ideas and stuff!

One day I'll hate you

I'm not a very big John Mayer fan. I just don't really listen to him but this entire week his song "Half of My Heart" has been stuck in my head. All week I have woken up singing this song. Everyday! The part that most sticks out to me is the part where he sings "Down the road, later on
you will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart" idk why.

Not so much about Grammar.

Warning: If you are of the male species and you don't like words like "period" stop reading. But if you stop reading you are passing up the chance to learn more about your female counterpart.

My period always takes me by surprise. After 9 years you'd think that the element of surprise would be gone, but it's not. The only time that it didn't sneak up on me was when I was on birth control. I mean in 2004 I didn't get my period that entire year. That was odd. After I started college my cycle was starting to get somewhat normal. Any way the reason for this blog is Mood Swings really. I get the WORST mood swings! I should be able to tell when I'm going to get my period by my mood swings but I'm always too preoccupied with, crying, getting mad, losing my temper or trying to kill myself(joke) that I forget to think "OH I know why I feel this way!" Do you feel this way? I usually get annoyed at one specific person. I can never really tell who it will be but 8 out of 10 times it's Noemi (I'm sorry noemi) But recently it was Tyler W. I wanted to punch him in the face when usually I love that kid. I also cry really easily. Usually at something that someone says to me. But I never cry in front of people(unless I'm watching a movie but movies always make me cry) because I don't like to let people know that they have the power to hurt me. Plus I have no real good reason to be crying. One time I cried for 3 days straight because of the lack of communication I had with a friend. SO DUMB! I get irritated really easily and I just yell. And I get really quiet, and stop talking to people so as not to yell at anyone. Mood swings suck!

When I got my iPhone I got this app called Period tracker(shout out to Kynslie for showing me that app). Did it erase the element of surprise? NO! EFF THAT APP!! Ahem... But it did show me something really interesting. Biology is a funny thing. Have you girls with boyfriends(or boys with girlfriends, if you're still reading) noticed that maybe like for week or so you're like really aggressive with said boyfriend? It's cause you're fertile! It's your animal extincts trying to get the best of you! Good thing we have self control right? right!

Anyway, these are all just things that I was thinking about on the way from school today. I was also thinking about a nap. And the really weird weather that we've been experiencing. I'm freaking out here!