Sunday, January 25, 2009

They Won't Love Me Like You Love Me

Over the years I have learned that sometimes your feelings are for sharing and sometimes your feelings are for yourself because they are silly feelings. I owe this knowledge in great part to my friend Peter. He taught me to be patient and that sometimes it's not ok to get mad at people. I used to get really mad at people and hold grudges. Now I take a step back and look at the whole picture (or most of it). When someone doesn't call me when they are supposed I don't get mad. Yes, it upsets me but what's the use in being mad? When it comes to friends, anger is a waste of time. That being said. I think that my roommates are angry that I have other friends.
 I'm used to being able to talk about the feelings that I think I should share. Noemi has taught me that when I need to share my feelings I can; and she won't hold a grudge for more than a day but with my roommates I'm afraid to tell them I have different plans for the night, let alone tell them that I don't like hanging out with the boys that they hang out with. They are all really pretty. Obviously pretty. And I am not. I'm not saying I'm ugly! I'm a good looking person I know that because I have heard it but with me, my personality is a lot of "me"(except black guys and mexican guys, they all just love me!). With them, guys first see how pretty they are then their personality is a plus. So needless to say, these guys like them more than they like me. I don't want these guys to like me. The way I am makes it easier for me to filter out people in my life that aren't good for me. These guys don't like my personality. They don't care much for the way I dress and they don't care that I like to read. They don't care that I love music. And my roommates don't see that. I'm always the odd man out. But my roommates don't get it. So when I tell them that I have different plans they get mad at me, but they won't tell me that they are mad at me because they are not Noemi. 

9 comments:

  1. Your roommates aren't prettier than you, and I'm not saying that to be nice.
    I hope none of them read this.
    if you want to bring this up later then I can rank them and justify my rankings, and they're probably the opposite of what you'd expect.
    I don't usually do that kind of thing, but I'm trying to prove a point.

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  2. this peter guy you speak of seems pretty sexy!!!

    and you should hang out with whoever you like mayne

    and i think that you like me
    so you should hang out with me love

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  3. bitches is right!!
    Quinn thank you! they won't read this. And you don't have to rank them. unless you really want to haha.
    Rune, this peter i speak of is an awesome guy! i will hang out with who i like, and i do like you and i will hang out with you whenever i can! i plomise!

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  4. Vickie, I hate girls.
    Okay...Well I don't hate them. But they seriously scare and intimidate me.
    BUT YOU SEEM LIKE ONE OF THE COOL ONES.
    When I come back out we will party to the Jo Bros and reminisce about our hardcore scenester days!
    Also, I am sometimes shy and awkward when I first get to know people in real life...Just a warning.

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  5. Vickie, I hate girls.
    Okay...Well I don't hate them. But they seriously scare and intimidate me.
    BUT YOU SEEM LIKE ONE OF THE COOL ONES.
    When I come back out we will party to the Jo Bros and reminisce about our hardcore scenester days!
    Also, I am sometimes shy and awkward when I first get to know people in real life...Just a warning.

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  6. Aw Amy, i'm like excited to get to know you! these roommates that i speak of are not going to be here in the summer so I can hang out with whomever i want! I'm kinda awkward but i don't think i'll be awkward with you! haha i think its cus we like the JoBros! haha

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  7. Vickie, I hate girls.
    Okay...Well I don't hate them. But they seriously scare and intimidate me.
    BUT YOU SEEM LIKE ONE OF THE COOL ONES.
    When I come back out we will party to the Jo Bros and reminisce about our hardcore scenester days!
    Also, I am sometimes shy and awkward when I first get to know people in real life...Just a warning.

    Just in case you didn't get that the first time . . . or the second.

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